Poor image...

My online image is not great.

So my website and my blog are fairly casual in tone, probably not best for an aspiring professional. They demonstrate breadth of skills without a focus of intention and lack mastery in a lot of ways.

If I wanted to be more effective as a developing designer (I would design more) I would repackage myself. I know my website has some very amateur aspects. I am in a development stage. I am thinking a lot about life. I am about to graduate college with a BS in Biochemistry. There is a lot going on.

I have a lot of goals and like to do a lot of things. The gist of this post is that I need to take a bearing and pick a direction. I have a lot of destinations I plan on reaching in life so if I don't get moving fast, I'm afraid of missing things. Also, I have overlooked (for a long time) that I have a couple gifts that a lot of people would kill me for not using more. I have to change that.

Tonight I wrote  a list. Mostly for myself.

1) You only live once. Life is short, fragile and fast.

2) Figure out what you like, learn about everything even if you don't like it, its hard or you dont understand it.  Try hard. See #1.

3) Don't do things because others expect it of you, do it for yourself. See #1 and #2.

4) Read the Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)- 

"Everything is written by the same hand."

"Life attracts life." 

"There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure." 

"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting." 

"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it." 

When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

The book is by a Catholic... but give the guy a break, remember faith must exist even if you have to make it up. Believe in something. I leaned a few lessons from it. 

This one is more for fun, I can't cite reasoning... just read books that make you think.

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5) Now that you've read and thought about #1-4 you are ready to throw everything away as soon as you have a dream, find something you like or fall in love. Forget that, remember that in the real world you have to pay bills. remember that in the real world, there are more options that just right and wrong. remember that the real world is cold, hard and can be as unforgiving as it can be divine and wonderful.

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6) Try and remember what it is that stirs passion in you, but look for ways to use it at a job. Try to not be crazy. This is not a requirement, however. Remind yourself of #1-4, keep #5 in mind.

7) Make a set of goals. If you don't, you risk losing sight of the big things you want while the little ones pile up. This is to remind you that a career, a family and climbing Mt. Everest are all separate, but you can't do them one at a time. See #1-2.

8) Find a job to make $$$. It doesn't need to be what you love, but if you don't start down a path you can't reach the destination. It doesn't mean any job will work either, it just means pick one and use your compass to stay on track. See #2-5,7= compass. 

9) Try to make sense of all of that shit. Try to remember it all. Try to remember it all and still live your life. If you can do that, we need to talk... 

10) Don't forget... success and happiness are different. Success is relative. You define what success is, you are allowed to set that bar yourself. Happiness is a feeling. Happiness is something your heart will only let you really have when you deserve it. Which are you looking for? Check #7. 

Appendix:

Don't give up. (I didn't think this needed to be stated explicitly, but just in case, here it is.)

I need to take care of some things then I want to repackage myself. 

Senior Year Grind

While I do biochemical case studies, wet-lab work and independent research I am also helping to manage a service fraternity and currently am serving as the communications chair (student organizations offer unique challenges- building reputation, building infrastructure, membership retention... all great things to learn from).

Working on so many things.

Many references comment that college is the best time to build up your personal design style and clientele. While protected from the real world by the shield of University, college is the time to learn and experiment.

My passion lies in learning about communications and design. My strengths are include working with new information and science information. Combining these things is my personal challenge.


Unfortunatly this To-Do list just keeps growing. I am looking at internship opportunities, making sure my graduation plans are in order and balancing a part-time job.

I find myself splitting my attention a bit more than I should and it is taking a toll on my work. Kind of  bummer. I have high personal standards and I want to make sure my own site shows what skills I am learning in web design and communication and I want to expand my portfolio with work that shows I am progressing...

I certainly don't have to worry about being bored. Just need to keep going. Cheers until next time.

Hopefully in the next month I will have some quality work to show off and can improve my own site as well as those I have designed for others.  Maybe even crank out some cool artwork.

Can you believe I am a Biochemistry major? Me neither...

Wordpress CMS inspiration... got to try some new layouts and backgrounds out.
http://wpinspiration.com/

Cool citation site:
http://citationmachine.net

If I had time for another project, there is funding available on campus!
Lushe | Vertical Garden | Living Wall | Green Wall | Landscaping Melbourne | Edible Wall

HTML 5.0! must learn!
http://diveintohtml5.org/

Encountering Issues

I have begun to take on website projects as well as commission graphic art and design and my responsibilities as a senior Biochemistry student, bartender and officer in the Mizzou service fraternity, Alpha Phi Omega. I wonder if I am working in too many different directions. I really was hoping my interests would converge at some point into what would become the job I create for myself. Solidarity dear friends.

I just want to express my frustration with web projects. When someone asks for a website, they must not be thinking about what they want, rather, just the notion that "Hey, a website with my name on it would be cool." I'm sure every designer has encountered this. The client decides to ask for something they have not thought about, but hope will materialize from their imagination onto the Web. 

Scratch that. Materialize from the designer's computer, telepathically from their own minds, onto the web. Sound about right?


What is the answer? Draft a worksheet, like from grade school, with blanks to fill in so a McWebsite can be cranked out? or do you try and heft the client's idea from the depths of the chasm where a brain ought to be?

Broad Skills, limited Time

Two weekends ago I was able to attend the Sonja Hillgren/Farm Journal Agricultural Journalism Field Reporting Institute through the University of Misouri– Columbia school of Journalism and Agricultural Journalism School. Three days on a bus, driving across Missouri; a group of journalists and students visited farms, urban gardens, distributers, and community centers.  We were exhausted and sleep deprived. Our faculties worn, and mentors watching, we questioned, interviewed and reported at each stop. We made connections and tried to grasp at the big picture; gathering bits and pieces of information to form a story.  

Ok, I know, a little dramatic, but we had a great time and it was exhausting.  I was trying something new and had experts observing me.  

This past weekend I attended the Biotech University sponsored by the United Soybean Board. The seminar, based on presenting background information on biotechnology and its future as an industry, was another event hosted by the Journalism School at Mizzou.  Another foray into the foreign art of reporting, I have gotten used to being called out as an outsider. They call me "The Biochemist," a pretty cool nickname, if you ask me. 


Now I want to hone my pencil to a sharp tip and write a great story. Partially to prove myself, but more to learn to communicate well with other industries. I think studying science so often, I have lost some of my communication skills, and every time I write I think I learn a lot.

Too Many Ideas!

I have been watching TED videos, playing around on twitter (I follow Inhabitat, artists, scientists, science journals, all sorts of cool folks), and reading the news a lot lately.  That and working pretty much fills up my day.  Its gross.  I literally can wait until people come back for the summer so I can unload all this news and all these ideas off on them. I have so many awesome stories,  and I have watched so much, that I need my own project before I explode. 

<- This page is how my mind feels right now!


And by my own project, I do not include the Grad Program Problem or the housing issues or whatever else, but something constructive.

Retrofitting my hometown thanks to ideas from Ellen Dunham-Jone . (I need to learn to write grants first)
Redesigning my website and putting together a portfolio for my art stuff thanks to Aaron Beall.
Building some new appartment furniture and decorations from my own sketches and Bliks.

Dream Project

Study with:

Mitchell Joachim 

 
Archinode Studio

Ted Talk by Mitchell Joachim

I know the ideas he presents are wild ideas that may seem foreign and silly to some people, but try to look forward and really apply the concepts discussed. Employ your imagination, you can see that people could exist in a new environment using the concepts and technology Joachim discusses.

I want to live in a tree!

Jack Kerouac's On the Road

An iconic, famous piece of literature depicting and capturing an image of America's identity. It idealizes a wild dream all of us have entertained at some point of another —  Striking out across the country, not planning or even considering the consequences of our actions;  partying until the sun rises only to keep it going throughout the next day; restlessly riding trains, hitching, and fighting — to find the next great adventure.

We all can relate to this picture, this wild spirit, that erupts from the quiet, calm of our daily lives.  What is really wild and exciting about this story is that Kerouac models the plot after his own life and the lives of his compatriots.  Constituents of a movement that he was responsible for naming:  The Beat Generation.

I don't even know how to sum up this epic adventure.  Kerouac writes in a style that resembles a whirlwind.  Alternating from short and choppy conversation to all-encompassing monologues about life and god and philosophy.  The skinny of it is, too me at least, that the boldness of the human heart can take you anywhere and the path of your life may twist and turn, but in the end we are all on the same road — we are all searching.  I just hope we all can enjoy some Finding at some point.

"All these years I was looking for the woman I wanted to marry. I couldn't meet a girl without saying to myself, What kind of wife would she make?"

"I want to marry a girl... so I can rest my soul with her till we both get old.  This cant go on all the time — all this franticness and jumping around. We've got to GO someplace, find something."

"GOD EXISTS without qualms. As we roll along this way I am positive beyond doubt that everything will be taken care of for us — that even you, as you drive, fearful of the wheel" (I hated to drive and drove carefully) — "the thing will go along of itself and you wont go off the road and I can sleep."

"Peace will come suddenly , we wont understand when it does— see, man?"

The Scroll, Kerouac's original manuscript On the Road.
Image from Maggie
http://flickr.com/photos/15932636@N00